My family is currently all packing and getting ready for reno. I already packed my little suitcase but im feeling really sick. I feel feverish and i got a bad cough and my nose is really runny. My mom is shouting yet again and my brother is mad at me cuz i dont want to take the books he gave me for christmas on the trip. Im really frustrated with family and gloomy at the prospect of seeing noone i know but them for 3 days straight.
For some reason with this anger in the house and my frustration and me feeling sick, right now i'm taking an extremely pessimistic view at everything. Im thinking a whole bunch of bad things weigh down on me and i feel hopeless. even the few good things dont seem so bright. I feel like im failing in all that im trying to do and that all that i want will not succeed due to my own shortcomings. I feel like that some of the few people i care about are pushing me out of their lives. Or that they dont trust me. And i feel that i will screw up the relationships with the few i have left. Hopefully this is just a little depressing phase that wont last long...
God i cant wait till im back.
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Don't feel bad. ><
Say, "I'm a happy man from a happy land." xD my brother started saying that once at a ski trip.
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